intention
calling on the four elements: earth, fire, air, water. lighting a candle to honour my intention
my writing for 21.5.800 is private. it’s a conversation i have chosen to have with myself as i realised earlier on this month that i had been spending so much time following what others were saying and doing that i’d forgotten what my own voice sounded like.
so i retreated somewhat. and decided that 21.5.800 would be about me. and an experiment in communicating with myself via the medium of technology – namely my macbook and ommwriter.
bindu has been writing about fear. and this morning i realised that it’s not fear that’s holding me back.
it’s shame.
and this realisation has brought about the wonderful beginning of a new and deeper, more truthful and honest conversation with myself. and because feeling shame can lead me to intentionally causing harm to myself…
today my intention was simply this:
i will get through this day without doing myself any harm
(i’m doing pretty well so far)
Pete McGregor
14/06/2010 at 22:40 //
My guess is that everyone (or nearly everyone?) has something they feel ashamed about — note the enormous popularity of Post Secret. While my basis for saying that is shaky, I suspect the belief that we’re “normal” in that respect (feeling shame) probably helps us deal better with the shame. Moreover, I wonder whether the rituals of confession, penance and absolution in Christianity serve a useful function by providing a way of dealing with guilt and shame without causing harm (excluding the self-flagellators, of course)? Presumably other religions have similar processes (I’m out of my depth here, though). I haven’t thought this through before, but perhaps this suggests a way of avoiding doing oneself harm: i.e. to develop a harmless ritual as a kind of secular penance — something like denying yourself a treat, or (better) doing something constructive for someone else, or yourself?
Just some thoughts. Good to hear you’re doing well so far, Leonie.
bella
14/06/2010 at 23:02 //
Hello sweetheart. I’m honoring you and your intention ~ and wrapping your brave heart in my hands for sharing yourself here.
You are digging and seeking – and the answers may not always be what you want them to be. But it takes this kind of honesty to really experience something and to grow from it.
I wish for you: gentleness. xo
Pen
14/06/2010 at 23:16 //
{{{Hug}}}
Your voice is one of the bravest ones I know.
Love you.
xo
Skeetergal
14/06/2010 at 23:45 //
You’re a superstar! That is all xN
Lisa
15/06/2010 at 10:18 //
Good for you!
Getting back in touch with our OWN voices again is SO needed in the world today.
Ah, yes, shame is a biggie. I’m working on that over here as well.
Sending you love, light, courage, healing, and peace.
doorways traveler
15/06/2010 at 16:29 //
first do no harm.
i love you and i always will. fact.
xx
flowing moments
15/06/2010 at 17:17 //
I love your voice, to me, it is a blessing
jane
16/06/2010 at 03:22 //
honouring your self care
rachel awes
16/06/2010 at 21:29 //
i love your photo & calling on the 4 elements.
i can feel how powerful & true it is.
& i love your going within to weed out &
find your honest voice.
& i love no harm.
& i love to send you love.
so i send you love
& beautiful light
& only the good.
xox
Linni
19/06/2010 at 21:07 //
Love you my friend and know that shame can be a biggie…but with the realising comes the releasing which in itself is a biggie too… so you are up for some biggies now…teehee.. i love you and think of you often xx