performance anxiety

performance anxiety calm

i haven’t been writing much lately: here or on paper.

and as i sat here thinking about WHY, i wondered, for the tiniest moment, if it was because i was anxious…

if it was because i had fallen back into the TRAP of comparing myself with others and coming up short.
or if it was that what i wanted to say wouldn’t come out right and that it would be misinterpreted.

and i realised as i sat here, in quiet conversation with myself that i wasn’t comparing. and i’m not anxious.

i’m totally calm. and still.
peace-full.

and the words aren’t coming because nothing is clamouring to be said.

(well, apart from this obviously)