there are so many things i cannot tell you
like how there is a sadness inside me that has no name, sitting heavy in the pit of my stomach, causing me to weep at the slightest thing
that i’m afraid that i won’t ever find my place to call home
i don’t know where my road goes
how much of an impostor i feel in my own life
i can feel the sun on my face, but climbing out of the dark into the light often fills me with fear instead of joy
i don’t know what you need, or even if i can give it to you
i don’t need you to fix me
i don’t know how to ease my own suffering, so the thought of being able to help the world sometimes feels impossible
being with you, i feel small and insignificant
sometimes i wish the outside of me was more beautiful
it feels like it is taking me too long to learn my lessons
sometimes i wish i could go back to sleep
thank-you for leaving. it prompted me to get out and live my life
9 thoughts on “so many things”
If I could do away with one thing in life, it would be fear.
I so get you… so many of these things you said feel familiar. Some of them touch a very soft and sensitive part of my heart.
Thank you so much for sharing this.
too long? I relate. I don’t think it’s true, though.
the radically new feels scary even when it shouldn’t, when it’s much better than the old way…but that’s okay. just forward.
Hugs to you, lovely lady. I completely relate, and wish I could hop over to NZ and go for a beach walk with you … xxox
Just like you.
Heartwrenching and spot-on – I’m feeling every word…
So beautiful and raw
Beautiful and heartbreaking.
Aww hun…totally get where you’re coming from on so many of those points…well just about all really. maybe it’s the tortured artists in us…or simply the human condition. I dunno.
Try to remember you’re right where you need to be & everything you need to know is inside of you already.
Love the picture & thanks for sharing the feelings.
very sweet. love the photo, love the words.
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